Our Secrets

I don't understand yet why she brakes off and talks about biology and military weapons. It doesn't feel like I'm getting any emotion in Griffins writing, very bland and neutral, just documenturing.

In the second full paragraph on pg 317 Griffin talks about the on-going debate of nature vs. nurture. i don't think nature has anything to do with the genetic make up of someone. Everyone makes a choice, what they do or don't do, but your experiences in life influuence you one way or another. I like how she also brings up the fact that we change who we are based on other people, like they saying, "everyone wears a mask."

She talks about her childhood, I'm wondernig if she is trying to compare the strict rules of her childhood to himmler's. Himmler was obviously conditioned in his childhood to judge people by their social class, not by who they are as people. She says reading his diary she has a hard time finding a balance in his opinion, I'm thinking that he would go back and forth because at times he was expressing himself and the other times he must have felt his father over his shoulder and he's write what his father wanted but it might have also been his because of the influences in his childhood had conditioned him to think that way.

I'm now starting to see the passion in her writing, now it's personable as well pg335. This is a very morbid essay, esspecially when she is talking about sadoism (or is masticism), maybe though I only think that way because to do those things is out of the norm. I like her psychological statement that she says, basically she is saying that if you're born into a family with an alcoholic then more than likely you'll be one along with being an abuser; verbally or physically.

pg 340 she talks about being Jewish blood and belonging to the jewish faith. i don't understand how someone can be of Jewish blood if Jewdasim is a religion and Jerusiliam is a city. I can't say I'm part English German and New Jersian, I don't understand.

The compassion he has for the executors is sickening and it's only because he saw them "in action," he had a different picture as to how people would die.

There are so many stories in this essay and so many psychological philosophies and questions behind alll of them its overwhelming. i was still trying to extract all the info and understand Himmler that I can't even concentrate on Leo and his sexuality and his secrets.